Oscar Scar

What's going on? LOL....I'm scared of myself. Isn't my love for him the holiest, purest, more innocent love of all? COz I mean I've never even touched him...and now: dreams! Last night I was holding him in my arms. I held him tight to my chest and I kissed his lips passionately for hours. My eyes vanished in the vastness of his glare!

WHy is it so painful now to keep reminding myself of those moments? P.!! It is over for me. All my senses are messed up. I haven't been able to think for like eight days. I've been crying like a baby. I can't stand any place and, at the same time, I can't be bothered about leaving. I desire nothing and ask for nothing.

IT WOULD BE A LOT BETTER FOR ME TO GO FOREVER.