Anyway, I just started feeling real rubbish because I'm confused about myself...maybe I'm gay?
I mean, I kind kind of know that I am...but then, one thing is to say it, and another is to actually BE something. Which is why I feel so bad, because I always do that, when it comes to being I always withdraw...and I hate it. I hate myself.
I so fuckin want to go away. Leave.
I' m waiting, I'm waiting, I'm waiting.