Saturday, 20 February 2010

I hope you can get all the good days I'm being deprived of.
I once promised myself I was gonna get rid of the photo of P. I have on my bulletin board. But I never did. And now, thinking about it, why should I? Perhaps I'm not the person P. loves the most, but I am at least the second. And I wanna keep this place, if it can't get any better. I cannot think he could forget me. To even think about that possibility is like...hell.
Goodbye, my angel. Goodbye, P.

Wednesday, 17 February 2010

I'm afraid I'm not gonna be able to stand living here much longer. My classmates are mostly unbearable, they're just so ridiculous I cannot help myself laughing when I speak to them, or contradicting them. An, of course, this is a problem for them. One of them even complained about me with the school director, which is a real pain in the ass. I was also about to give the job up, but then the director wrote to me asking to stay. He was actually very nice. He told me he understood where I was coming from, that he appreciated my sensitivity and my enthusiasm. He told me I could use all those qualities to just become a better me. That helped a lot I gotta say. I've been feeling a lot better the last eight days or so. To feel in peace with oneself is something amazing. To be happy with oneself. It is such a precious, but such a fragile feeling!

Tuesday, 16 February 2010

Monday, 8 February 2010

The weather has been pretty crap for the last few days...I like it. Because it seems that, since I've been here, there has not yet been a good day that was spoilt by someone or something. If it rains, snows, freezes, though, oh! I think that it's not gonna be worse inside than outside, and the other way round, so everything's cool. So, if, by looking at the sun early in the morning, you can tell that the day is going to be beautiful, I say to myself: "Seems like we're gonna have another gift from Mother Nature that human beings are going to spoil!"
There is nothing people don't destroy: health, reputation, happiness, rest. And this, is almost always because of their stupidity, their misunderstanding and their narrowness of mind. Sometimes I just feel like kneeling down in front of them and begging them not to be so cruel against each other.