Saturday, 30 May 2009
Wednesday, 27 May 2009
Tuesday, 26 May 2009
I don't know....maybe it's just bullshit.
I mean, if you stick to nature in a way you limit yourself a lot. So, yes, I'm not even sure why I felt that when I was drawing that kid. I suppose I just saw a lot of beauty in reality.
I refuse every rule, I think rules are the exact opposite of true feelings, of passion.
I know we do need some sort of rule in order to live together on the same planet...so many of us.
But I hate everything that's moderated...I mean, if you want to love, LOVE! if you want to hate, HATE...but DO IT!
Why does this happen so rarely?
Monday, 25 May 2009
And if I look inside myself, I find obscurity rather than positive energy.
Which kind of makes me scared, and confused, and numb, so I just smile and carry on trough this life, in a dreamlike state.
After all, grown ups are exactly like children. They have no idea where they wanna go and where they've come from. They just keep going, because they take for granted, and accept, the fact that they have to.
Well, in a way sometime I kind of envy these people whose lives are like children's: they just label everything they do and are, they get paid, buy more things, get paid again, and they're happy. Lucky them, in a way.
I mean, what's the point of meeting so many people all the time if then none of them means anything for you?
Most people are just so busy working that, when they have a bit of freedom, they try as hard as possible to fill it with more work! How idiotic is that?
Oh, Shola ( she used to comment on my blog, but she's nowhere to be seen lately) said something interesting about this. I'll quote her:
"No one really knows themselves and when they do, they are too old to do something about it. Huahaha."
I think the laughter is actually the wisest part of the sentence.
I suppose it's all a matter of letting oneself go and be a bit...carefree?
Like when we were children maybe.
I just have to avoid thinking of all the energies that are in me. It's like knowing that you're a super hero but being unable to show that to the world. I don't knwo if this makes sense...
err...well, it's just this sensation of having so much stuff inside that just lies there and rots away because you can't use it, or not yet. You have to hide your real identity, in a way.
And this really pisses me off.
But then, I suppose every 'freak' is doomed not to be understood.
This thought makes me a bit sad because it reminds me of the conversations I used to have with my once-upon-a-time best friend, D.
I used to have a really ace time with him. When I was with him I felt I couldn't, didn't need to, go further, because what I was already was as far as I could go, that is, perfect.
It was rare, pure perfection. It was never 'perfect' in the universal sense, if there is such a sense, but it was perfect in its own being obviously imperfect.
aahhhhh, I'm tripping over my own words now.
Oh, I met this guy a few days ago...he's an artist and he's quite cute : )
But he's one of these people who boast about their own culture by insisting that they don't know anything, which is kind of annoying, so I don't know what's gonna happen.
So, he came to my place and I showed him some drawings and shit I've made...he said he liked them, and he seemed honest. But then he kept going on and on about what he's read and this and that, and it all became a bit boring really.
But at least he's real...not like these people you meet that pretend to be your friends and then just disappear.
I was walking down the road yesterday, and I saw this woman on the floor, she had fallen or something. So I offered to help...you know, kindness and all that shit. And, you wanna know what?
She basically kicked me with her bag!
I mean, WTF?
I'm gonna stick to myself from now on...
I literally feel excitement running through my veins..how can I explain to you? I'll never see a moodier, more unstable person than myself now. Yes, I know this might sound werid to others: but I know you'll understand, right? I mean, you've seen me going nuts enough times, haven't you?
And I just keep over indulging my heart, I'd be such a sweet parent if my heart were a child : )
But hey... shush! don't tell this around....
Ya know...People are strange ( stranger than me)
Sunday, 24 May 2009
I'm gonna try and stop whining about everything and think about the present a bit more. Let the past take care of itself. Yeah, I see what you meant when you said that I can't carry on racking my brains over the past...you're so wise sometimes.
I've had this argument with my mum, but I don't feel like talking about it now. Nothing big. I just realize how misunderstanding sometimes is worse than bad actions...coz things end up being even worse when people don't understan each other.
I found this little garden with an old shed in it, and I just spent sometime in the shed, thinking. It felt like there was something really, how can I say, 'sensitive' about that garden...I dunno...but it made me feel very emotional ( not unusual). And I started to think I'd love to own that garden.
Thursday, 21 May 2009
Tuesday, 19 May 2009
Sunday, 17 May 2009
Teen Robs Shop With Banana Then Eats Evidence
2 hours 41 mins ago© Sky News 2009
A teenager was caught trying to rob a store with a banana - then ate the makeshift weapon to destroy the evidence.Skip related content
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Sadly for John Szwalla he was unable to swallow the skin which was duly photographed by police in North Carolina, America.
The 17-year-old is currently in the county jail charged with attempted armed robbery.
The bizarre drama began when Szwalla entered the 109 Biz Center in Winston-Salem with a banana under his shirt.
The hapless thief told staff in the internet cafe that he had a gun and demanded cash, according to local reports.
Owner Bobby Ray Mabe said he and a customer jumped on to Szwalla, pinning him into a chair before deputies arrived.
But while they waited for police, Mabe says the teen stuffed the banana into his mouth and swallowed it.
When deputies arrived they took pictures of the banana peel instead.
Forsyth County Sheriff's office spokesman Major Brad Stanley said police joked about charging Szwalla with destroying evidence.
"If he had had a gun he would've shot me," Mabe said yesterday.
"But he had a banana," he added.
Szwalla faces a charge of attempted armed robbery. Jail officials said he does not have an lawyer.
Szwalla is in the Forsyth County Jail, with bond set at £35,000.