I fell asleep and now waking up the thought is still there in my mind, and strong in my heart: I want to die!
It isn't desperation. It is certainty that I have suffered all I had to suffer, and that I want to sacrifice myself for you. Yes, P. Why should I shut up? One of us three has to disappear and I want to be that one! My love.....I thought so many times to kill your girlfriend or you, or myself! ANd so, this should be.
on a nice summer evening
when you climb on a mountain
there will be my tomb
where the wind blows
in the light of the sunset.
I was calm when I started writing and now I'm crying like a child. Everything around me breathes.